happy (2 days late) birthday to me! sorry i wouldve said something about it on here but i was occupied with a lot of other things... neocities u are still rlly dear to me! anyways it was kind of nice i got a birthday surprise from my friends and they made a really sweet video for me! honestly didn't get that many gifts (or just haven't received them yet) this year but it's okay bc i did buy myself a few gifts :) i bought some yuta goods (plushes, stickers, photocards) and i hope they arrive soon. very grateful for all the years ive spent on earth and for all the love that's brought me this far
every year i make a birthday journal spread and i was extra emotional making this year's one like i was sobbing while writing LOL i just feel like ive come so far and i really never expected things to turn out this well. of course there are lots of ups and downs but i think this just shows how its true that everything really does get better in the end and i trust that my life will continue to get better and better ^_^
im also quite grateful for how much i've grown as a person and i think i matured a lot in the past year. i guess its only something you realise much later but im grateful that i got to make mistakes early on and learn from them! i find that a lot of my friends kind of have the same mindsets/vices from myself a few years ago and that's their own journey so i cant really compare but im glad that i managed to get past that. gosh its so corny but having a positive attitude and a growth mindset really does help things. or rather just conditioning yourself into thinking you are what you attract (it works a lot trust me) gotta have that girlboss law of attraction mindset! ive also learnt to be a lot kinder with myself and having more fun in the only life i have
anyways another birthday present from the world would be the new mitski album i just can't stop listening to it. my favourite tracks are the frost and my love mine all mine they SPEAK!!! to my heart like they remind me a lot of myself and media i like psst satosugu oh my god also speaking of satosugu i just . Wow im devastated i wont say it bc spoilers but iykyk i was devastated still am i think... gonna go back down my stsg ao3 rabbit hole im so excited to be absolutely wrecked by all the ffs.
- j